All the things that we project inside and outside of our mind matter. What we say… what we feel… what we think… what we do. It all matters. Go outside and tell me what color the sky is. Mine is purple with tints of blue and orange with a beautiful sun rising. Would I feel this way if I weren’t in a good mood? Would it then be black… with tints of white? Today I feel great watching the sun rise. …But when I am not feeling so cheery, the sun would be too bright and I would want to go back inside. I slept well, and today I feel productive. Today… that is what matters. I try not to think too hard about yesterday and tomorrow is already today. This moment is what matters.
I used to dread waking up. Dealing with the world and all of its non-beauty. Dealing with myself. Then I started learning that I am just not alone in all of this madness. Others feel defeated. Others want to scream and shout. Others bleed too. And not everyone loves people at all. So if you feel this way, please know you are not alone. But also know, you mustn’t give up.
I know it is a battle that feels it can’t be won but that’s just not true. It is a daily battle. Not just one big one. Some days you will win and some days you will not. And some days feel like they will never end, but they do. And when you feel like you want to throw up a white flag is when you must fight the hardest because it is after that moment, that the battle is over. It is in that moment when you realize you have won. Just wear your armor proudly and fight. But remember that when you look in the mirror, your most worthy opponent, is you.
Be kind to yourself. You are worthy and you matter.